Complete Contentment!!!

“It makes no sense, come-on... You’ve done enough of it. Now forget it. Not your cup of tea”

“But, I’ve just started. You can’t discourage me this way. You should indeed be happy and motivate me to move on.”

“You’ll see only failures in this field... you’ll never rise”

“One day... I will and then I’ll bang on, on your last statement”

“Stop giving yourself lame excuses and reasons to smile at or be happy about. You are not a good writer and you won’t be a successful one either. There are thousands other with the same dream out there in the market. What do you have to offer the people which the others don’t?”

“A new story... my story... my life... my perspective... mysteries.. There’s lot more... I can’t define it all to you in words here”

“Oh! And you think it will be a block-buster sort of thing? As if people have never heard about something like this before? Stop be-fooling yourself and get back to some serious work that’ll help you in your progress as an individual”

“But, I love writing. And I don’t have to think much about it. For now, being a novice, I do take time to pen down things... but that doesn’t mean I am bad at it.”

“Oh! So what do you exactly want out of all this?”

“A chance... for myself... the fact and contentment to live ahead in my life with no regrets.”

“REGRETS? About what?”

“About not being able to do something that was solely my. I am sure people can stop me from doing some other works. Being a girl I’ve faced that shit to some extent, of not being able to live up to what I actually want... but this writing solely belongs to me... Me, My writing, My thoughts... and even if you... my inner self doesn’t supports me... I’m going to crack you down and go ahead with this.”

“Ah!” smilingly “Now I feel that from past 6 months the way you’ve been questioning yourself in this same regard won’t bother you any longer and my task is over from now on. Enjoy your new life.”

“What do you mean?”

“haha.. Don’t you remember? All these past months and not to forget the past two years since you had that idea about your novel, you’ve always been asking me about your ability, about being able to captivate readers and at times you were so distressed that you don’t even used to listen to all the positive things that I used to tell you... you never used to touch the pen and diary for days... thinking you won’t be able to make it up and so you must stop with all this.”

“Ah! Yes... I do remember all that lot...” I replied with a bit of sarcasm.

“But, today... my task to guide you is over. This is satisfying. I feel happy to be with you... on your determination. I was trying to de-motivate you, demoralize you today... testing your determination and enthusiasm. Talking to oneself can at times lead to be quite satisfactory. What here is more enthralling is that, your self determination to write won’t lose now. Nobody can break it.”

“And how are you so sure about it?” I enquired eagerly

“When one can win an argument to oneself about anything that is annoying him/her... then there is nothing else the person actually wants out of him/herself. You finally have won this argument. And I can see the determination to never leave your writing aside.” Came a voice from my inner self. “Good luck dear.”

I smiled with complete contentment.